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i dont play for keeps

i play to win

some days i want to run where no one knew me in my old life. Where that part did not exist. But to do that i would have to give up the best part of that life ; the best part of me. Im not willing to let go. Its not a option. So i stay. I stay even when going home looks so good.

Basking in the sun on a staircase. Wind blowing exciting the visions in my mind. The feeling of insignificance. What a sight I must be. Swirl of thoughts in my expression. I wonder if anyone would grasp what is happening. Then i see her. Across the way a on staircase. A old woman sitting there. Elbow on her knee; hand to her face. Unaware I exist. As if i dont see her. Immersed in her thought. Swaying at the world she created in her mind. She is beautiful.
Two staircases & only one can see the tragedy in it all. If i could draw her! Paint her!To show the life in her.
She is beautiful.

As i foxtrot madly down town under small bulb lights i see you in a dark corner waiting to take me away ……                                                                                       Please take me. For all that matters is you.

you broke me beyond repair
I’ve lost you to many times to noticed that your actually gone
reaching for you is heart breaking
for all i get is all consuming emptiness.

From I am here
I’m lost without you I’m lost without you. Though all my kingdoms turn to sand and fall into the sea. I’m mad about you, I’m mad about you ….

I’ve come to see the addiction of your need of me;the conclusion that I’m ok being your enabler

There is nothing like driving with wind in my hair and your glare on me. I doubt you well ever really understand how you make me feel when I’m with you

I’m not the type of person to say it just to say. But when I love; I love to the point I don’t need to tell you. You already know

there is beauty in everything even the ugly. there is a rhythm to it.                               just have to be open to see it